The truth, at last
Oct. 24th, 2018 09:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thetruthatlastOkay, we’re back in business. Hi. I’m home right now. I have to go back to LA for the trial. The lawyer I’ve spoken to seems very certain that Rob will be found guilty.
I used to be such a big fan of Rob’s. Part of me thinks that if I was a better, truer fan, I would have hidden the evidence. Should I have ignored Nathan’s body and gone home and never told a single soul? Let Rob bury him in the woods somewhere and hide this whole thing from the world’s ugly gaze?
He had more than enough chances. I don’t understand why he just left him there for so long. Nearly two weeks. How could he be so cruel, to someone he cared about? Did he invite me over because he wanted me to be the one to find the body? Was part of him hoping that this would be the outcome, because he couldn’t stand the guilt? Have I helped him, in some way?
These are the things I keep thinking, over and over, in an endless loop. I don’t have an answer. I don’t know how to feel about any of this.
I used to be such a big fan of Rob’s. Part of me thinks that if I was a better, truer fan, I would have hidden the evidence. Should I have ignored Nathan’s body and gone home and never told a single soul? Let Rob bury him in the woods somewhere and hide this whole thing from the world’s ugly gaze?
He had more than enough chances. I don’t understand why he just left him there for so long. Nearly two weeks. How could he be so cruel, to someone he cared about? Did he invite me over because he wanted me to be the one to find the body? Was part of him hoping that this would be the outcome, because he couldn’t stand the guilt? Have I helped him, in some way?
These are the things I keep thinking, over and over, in an endless loop. I don’t have an answer. I don’t know how to feel about any of this.
